it's got... so many complicated feelings and expectations and fears associated with it that it's hard both to do it and to let go of it. Like, when I'm doing it I feel terrible and inadequate, so I procrastinate. Then it eats up every other thing because I can't feel good about doing anything else while I'm feeling so much guilt over it. It's not very healthy, to say the least.

Is there a way to maybe take a break from it, and come back if you manage to work through that stuff, or let it go if it's not doable? Because that sounds like a godawful position to be in!

--Rogan, who spent a brief period wanting to be an academic (HAHAHA NO)